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this picture melts my heart

we will miss zach so much and so will steele

he'll be almost four years old when zach comes home

see ya in TWO zachy pants

not so pink

i am getting more and more excited to have a girl. 

one thing i know for sure is that pink is not the first thing 

that comes to my mind when i think of a girl. 

i am in love with black, grey and neutrals for a baby girl.

then the colors comes into play with splashes 

of rich color in the accessories.

don't get me wrong. 

she will be seen in pink now and then

but my motto {if  you can say it's a motto}still stands.

which is that i don't put anything on steele that i wouldn't

have brett wear and i don't want to put anything on 

this little girl that i wouldn't wear {well to a certain extent, she will wear 

big bows that i would never be caught dead in...}

finding girl clothes size newborn-six months is 

near impossible with this motto. i went up 

to nordstrom rack because i had a return to make 

and i scoured the racks. nothing. 

i ended up in the section i feel most comfortable, 

little boys. steele got some cute button-ups but 

i left with nothing girl. i need help. 

girl store suggestions anyone?  

 as for me, well i'm still not feeling so great these days {actually threw

up next to the dumpster outside today}.....

BUT it is a constant reminder of how lucky i am to be able to carrying a child.

nurturing a little person is such a miracle and i am just fine

with feeling lousy if it means another little baby can come into our family.

i'm going to blame me looking so hammered on my camera being so crapy

and me deciding to take pictures at the end of the day when

i am so ready for bed it's not funny. i've thought about cropping my 

head off in these pics and i probably should have but then

i just thought i'm being too dramatic and i'm always going to be my own worst critic. 

i will be 19 weeks on sunday and then have my 

20 week ultrasound the week after next. i love

getting the chance to see my precious girl and i'm anxious

to make sure everything is growing normal. 

almost half way there! 

wow this pregnancy is flying by. it'll be june before we know it!

drum roll.......

i haven't updated about my pregnancy at all and that makes me sad. \\sorry to leave you hanging about one or two babies. just one.\\ with steele i posted all the time about how i was feeling and growing. this round i am busy every single day and can't seem to find the time to post. steele is so much fun and i need to do a post about how adorable my son is. i'm constantly smiling and hugging him because he is absolutely the sweetest little boy. i was telling brett the reasons why i think i mesh well with steele. i think it's mostly because steele is a mini brett. the biggest resemblance is their mild and even tempered personalities. steele is shy and gets overwhelmed by crowds. he listens well and is disciplined easily. he says please and thank you even at the wrong times. my favorite thing to hear is "thank you mommy" in his sincere innocent voice after i give him anything. he is still so cuddly and loves to sit on my lab and play with my hair. obviously brett doesn't do many of these things but i really think steele is the perfect child for me because he has a lot of brett in him. 

now onto the real reason for this post, the baby! i'm 16 weeks 5 days and loving being pregnant once again. this time has been much more difficult because one, i have been much much more sick than with steele. morning or night it doesn't matter but even more so between 5-9pm. thank goodness for zofran because my life would be a wreck without it. i didn't even hesitate to call and get a prescription when i felt the sickness coming on. i loved zofran with my first pregnancy and knew i needed it to survive. secondly, entertaining an almost two year old around all day long really takes it out of you when you are pregnant. i find myself needing to lay down at some point in the day or i will start to get crampy. 

{14 weeks}

as most of you remember from my first pregnancy, i get very large very quickly. although last pregnancy i feel i was growing faster, i have been the same large belly self for about a month. i've had a belly from about 8 weeks on. i'm feeling a growth spurt coming on so i'll try to be better about belly pictures. 

{gender ultrasound}

\\i am going to have to start making it a point to look somewhat attractive in pictures. every picture i've posted the last two months i just look haggard. and the yellow lighting in a doctor's office (below) is not the most flattering.\\ 

by the profile, what do you think we are having?

we are having a....

...............little GIRLie girl!!

steele is going to be the best big brother to his little sister!

yes, brett will have his daddy's girl and then there is me who is more stressed about not having the money for a girl. i'm going to want spend way too much money on accessories and adorable outfits for our little girlie but that just can't happen. so i'll put my shopping, thrifting and crafting skills to the test. steele and her will be sharing a room so wish me luck with unisexing their space. i have some really fun ideas. 

we are extremely excited!!