not so pink

i am getting more and more excited to have a girl. 

one thing i know for sure is that pink is not the first thing 

that comes to my mind when i think of a girl. 

i am in love with black, grey and neutrals for a baby girl.

then the colors comes into play with splashes 

of rich color in the accessories.

don't get me wrong. 

she will be seen in pink now and then

but my motto {if  you can say it's a motto}still stands.

which is that i don't put anything on steele that i wouldn't

have brett wear and i don't want to put anything on 

this little girl that i wouldn't wear {well to a certain extent, she will wear 

big bows that i would never be caught dead in...}

finding girl clothes size newborn-six months is 

near impossible with this motto. i went up 

to nordstrom rack because i had a return to make 

and i scoured the racks. nothing. 

i ended up in the section i feel most comfortable, 

little boys. steele got some cute button-ups but 

i left with nothing girl. i need help. 

girl store suggestions anyone?  

 as for me, well i'm still not feeling so great these days {actually threw

up next to the dumpster outside today}.....

BUT it is a constant reminder of how lucky i am to be able to carrying a child.

nurturing a little person is such a miracle and i am just fine

with feeling lousy if it means another little baby can come into our family.

i'm going to blame me looking so hammered on my camera being so crapy

and me deciding to take pictures at the end of the day when

i am so ready for bed it's not funny. i've thought about cropping my 

head off in these pics and i probably should have but then

i just thought i'm being too dramatic and i'm always going to be my own worst critic. 

i will be 19 weeks on sunday and then have my 

20 week ultrasound the week after next. i love

getting the chance to see my precious girl and i'm anxious

to make sure everything is growing normal. 

almost half way there! 

wow this pregnancy is flying by. it'll be june before we know it!