Sunday, November 15, 2015

their baby, my body

Writing things down is a form of therapy for me so bear with me while I share each step of my emotional ride. Going through this process I didn't know what to expect or how I was going to feel. There is no way of knowing other than to jump in with both feet. So far it has been an amazing experience and I attribute so much of that to Anastasia being so supportive and comforting. 

Yesterday we had the gender ultrasound it was incredible seeing a little active baby growing inside ME! I have no mixed emotions. I know they may come down the road but for now I'm feeling really good. I have been waiting all along for that moment of "uuuuuh what did I get myself into?!" But it hasn't come yet. It's hard at times when I'm sick and throwing up but I've never felt like it's not worth it. 

It was pure joy watching them be so happy. It is very surreal seeing them looking at the monitor but the image is coming from my stomach! 

We both got a huge surprise when we found out we were wrong and there is a little BOY growing snug as a bug! I was positive it was a girl! I have been extremely sick, much more so than with my two pregnancies. Anastasia also was thinking it was a girl. Perry came to the appointment with us and she and Anorah sat up on the bed with me. It's pretty hard for a 4 and 3 year-old to see the baby in black and white and see all the things we see. Perry asked if "the baby got to come out today?!!" She's a little anxious for it to be our turn. I think that everyone is still in shock that it is a boy but everyone is so happy! I'm excited for them to have one of each just like us! 

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